Sorry to hear you're feeling depressed. Anything you wanna talk about?
But getting your comment put me in a good mood :)

I'm pretty good lately. I still feel like cutting a bit but I think that's just a reflex kind of thing now- I don't have reason to, I just feel like I should. But I've held off, if as far as I can take it is to the ball then that's okay, it's better than how far I've come before. My Ball's on Friday. Do you guys get balls or like prom or something? I guess it's all the same hey?

Yeah so anyway- I figure I just need a new way of coping with stress because last year's wasn't so succesful haha.

It's weird. For year 12 we get a common room which is just a big room that anyone can use at lunch and recess or whatever and most people sit in there but you'd think having it would make all of the groups kind of join up more- which it has to an extent. It's only my group that have completely split up- one half of us sit at one end and the rest of us at the other end and everybody else all sit in the middle, and it's funny because none of us even talk about it- it just seems so normal like nobody seems upset about it or anything. But like in classes and stuff we still talk to each other? haha, just thought it was odd.

I've been sleeping a bit better since the first weeks of school- I'm getting like 5 or 6 hours now which is good but before I was getting those dark circles under my eyes and at the time I was kind of covering them up but before hand and now when they aren't so obvious I quite like the idea of having them- because if someone can notice them and can see that I'm not sleeping or I don't look well or something that maybe everything isn't always okay with me. buuuut having said that I've been okay lately so I guess it's only when I'm in a rutt that I want that to happen.

IDK I've just been rambling! I don't think I really had much to say for this post except the first couple lines but I wanted to post something a little longer so I just got distracted hah. ~At least it's not sad rambling (yet) haha.

Gave the blog a bit of a makeover. ha.

alright time to fill you in :)

on facebook a random kid added me and he used to date one of my friends from school- he's like 19 and he started talking to me and so yeah now we're friends or w/e but he's pretty much looking for more than just friends but I told him I didn't want anything more- which I don't.- and yeah it's just nice having someone show some interest in me at all -let alone in that way.

it makes me nervous though, every time he mentions something more. I'd always planned on not staying attatched to many people here so I can go live in America orrr Canada as soon as possible- but I want to be able to start from scratch you know? and just be able to be who I want to be without having to think about how it'll affect everyone around me. I don't want to have too many people that I'd really miss.

err IDK what's even relevant to post on here any more.

Second week back at school. this week's better- I was hardly sleeping last week, the most I had was 5 hours sleep in one night. Last night I got like 6.5 so that was better.

I kind of liked not sleeping though, it gave me bags under my eyes which made me look as tired as I felt, not only physically but like mentally as well. Tired of people, mostly.

There's been some pretty bad bush fires around, people at school had to get evacuated and stuff. idk they aren't near my house but like 60 were lost and yeah. sad stuff.

ah, school is stressful already. not really looking forward to this year. need to find a new way to relieve stress or something.

sorry I wanted to post but I passed the internet download limit so it was too slow.

I'm fine, nothing really has changed except I'm going back to school the day after tomorrow. The sooner I get out of that hole the better.

I'm not sure if you even read this any more. there's probably not much point anyway, as if it means anything any more anyway.