I'm not an outcast- I never really have been and I probably won't be anytime in the near future.
I haven't been bullied.
I have a family a lot of people would die for.
My parents don't put huge amounts of pressure on me for school.
I have awesome friends.
I have people that care.

I just can't handle being normal, I don't want to be left in the crowd, I don't want to stand out. Even the kids who dye their hair crazy colours are doing normal things for teenagers, rebellion is normal. It doesn't make you different, you're still the same. It's impossible to escape. Even the things I feel, I'm sure, are normal for teenagers. The things I think, the way I act, it's ALL expected of me. I freaking hate people. I hate that people expect me to go out every weekend and get drunk. I hate that people expect me to be smart because I can read. I hate that people judge me before they know me and then have the conviction to not tell me what they think of me. I like individuals; I hate people.



My own grandfather didn't recognise me when I visited him the other week. I'm so glad I visited him because I know his time will come soon. I'm glad I got to speak to him.