Pages

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I feel so incredibly terrible. I stumbled across one of my friends' yahoo answers profile.

I knew she had bad depression. She's been to hospital a lot and she's on a lot of medication.
I never wanted to press too deeply about why she'd go to hospital or anything.

Some of her questions from about 4 weeks ago were "What would happen if I took 18 panadol tablets?" theres one that says "What should I do?! -I just took 18 panadol tablets. I'm kinda scared. Should I tell my mum or throw them up?"

There's one from 3 months ago. "I need to know if I've overdosed.. ? -I just took 6 panadol and 50mg of seroquel.. will I overdose?"


I don't want anybody to ever feel the way I feel reading these. I know all that - it's not your fault - crap, but I honestly believe I could have at least been there for her.I'm glad I'll have that chance in the future.



I don't know if I should confront her about it. If I did I think I would have to tell her about myself, which I don't think I'm ready to do -I'm just comming to grips with it myself- But I don't know what would be best for her. I don't want her to feel like this when she finds out about me. IF she finds out.

1 comment:

  1. It really isnt your fault though. You didnt know how bad she was depressed..
    If you wouldve known. You wouldve helped more.
    Yes confront her about it. You dont have to say your going through the same thing yet. Hide that you are until youre ready to tell her.
    I hope you and her feel better <3

    ReplyDelete