I'm so sick of having to convince myself that cutting is not going to make anything better when it's all I want. I know it only makes things seem ok for a few seconds but it seems so worth it and I don't want to keep feeling like this. I don't want to feel so lost.
Cutting had made everything better for me. It still does. I cant stop. No matter what. Ive slowed down. Its one good thing I guess.
ReplyDeleteLook, dont try and stop yourself. See if you can put the blade to your skin. For me after this long I had no strength to cut. It was out of my system. I had forced myself to cut. I will admit, Im crazy.
You dont have to feel the way you do. You can think of other things. Like good times and stuff. Im out of words tonight. Its all I can really think of to say. I wish I could help you more but Im lost right now.