I'm having a real bad day.

I felt so disgusting. I looked in the mirror and I couldn't see anything good. I saw fat and ugly. I tried to throw up my dinner but I couldn't. The only thing left I knew I had was cutting, so I cut.

I really thought I was getting ok. I've lost weight but I haven't been trying and I still look fat. I know that I won't ever find anybody who likes me when I look like this. I can't keep making myself believe I will.