I've been kind of distancing myself from everybody. I don't want them to notice anything.

but shelley's been like planning this party with some other girl and I really don't like her and, I don't know. this is what I wanted, I wanted to be left alone. I do want to be left alone. It will be better for everybody, nobody will find out and nobody will think that it was their fault for not noticing. it's not their fault, it's me. It's just always so lonely.