I know what I want. I want to be thin.

But I'm getting so confused and I'm stuck because I know what you want and what other people would want for me. And I know you've been where you think I'm going before and you don't want that for me. nobody really wants it for anybody. And I hate that I have to think about this so much, that I have to think about keeping everybody else happy over me, when did what I want stop mattering? I wish I could be happy with how I am, but I'm not and I don't know how else to change it other than changing me.

I just have to gain some control in my life.