I don't think I've EVER felt as nervous as when Shelley was using my computer today.




Lately I haven't felt much at all. I just feel numb. All the time. It was easier when I was sad or angry or anything, even if it was bad. It was just easier to know what I felt and what I could do about it, you know. Now it's just like waiting for something to make everything bad again, it's so hard to focus on being happy when I'm trying so hard not to be sad. I'm just, numb.