I talk to myself sometimes. I create scenarios in my head where I can tell people these things about me and they almost always end up bad.
My trust is broken.
From years of hearing other peoples secrets and telling them to others, I can't put myself at risk like that. School, and my friends are what's keeping me stable. I can't shake that now, and I don't know if I ever could. But sometimes I just want to scream at them, to show them what I've been going through, because I need them.
But I don't want to be a loner emo kid that everybody feels sorry for. I don't want it to get worse.
You wont ever be the loner emo kid that everyone feels sorry for. You never will. If they treat you like that (If you told how your feeling) Theyre crazy. Everyone goes through hard times. Even the person who seems to be the happiest one alive.
ReplyDeleteI hope you can find someone to trust and tell everything to soon. Besides me, I know you dont tell me everything maybe not even trust me. But atleast you wont feel so alone in your town.
Im still always going to be here for you.