So in outdoor ed for next year they are doing a 10 day white water rafting trip. I don't know if I want to go. I know money is tight here and so I didn't ask Mum if I could go. She filled out the permisson slip and gave me the deposit money but I still don't know if I should go. I want to go to Canada/USA the year after next and I kind of want to put that money towards it or atleast something I know I want.

The trip looks so fun and I don't know why I don't want to go. They will be going jungle surfing, white water rafting, mountain biking and snorkelling. I know I will be closer with every one if I went. But I would have to wear bathers, singlets etc. I don't think even without the scars I would be comfortable wearing bathers.

Maybe I'll see if I could put the money towards something else. I'm sure we could do with $500- and that is just the deposit.