I cut today. I don't actually regret cutting, I regret having to tell you. I know you understand but I hate bearing bad news.
I wasn't sad or angry or anything. I just went for a walk and I took my blade. I think I was hoping I would throw it away but that didn't happen. I found a beautiful spot, a clearing. The weather was cold, wet and windy and I sat down and I wanted to throw it away but I didn't. I just cut.
It's a strange feeling when you're in the open for all to see but nobody is around to see you.
=( i hope that next time you go to that clearing you have the courage to throw away the blade instead of using it...throw it away and let your mind wander to thoughts of a brighter future ^.^
ReplyDeletenow it's a bit earlier than 11, but i don't know if i'll be back tonight..it's not like i have anything particularly profound to say, i just hope to remind you that there are people out here who care about what happens to you so please don't throw your life away!
xoxo
Kelsey, You just got me lost for words.
ReplyDeleteI know how cutting is addictive. I cant tell you to stop, Because that would be pretty hypocritical for me to do that. What about everytime you want to cut think of your friends. How they would be devastated if they found out you do cut.
Im glad we became friends.. Atleast I hope we are.
I know for sure ill always care.
Love Kayla-Ann